reading zone
每個人心中總有屬於片自己美好的過去，記憶的園地可以是現實的避風港，也可以是提昇的力量！
..... 不能比較，記憶是經選擇的。僧塏法師跟我說過，人呀，在一個地方怨一個地方；離開一個地方想念一個地方！在台灣時，家鄉的記憶是美好的；回到馬來西亞後，是不是現實的種種阻礙或不順，使我們躲回台灣的記憶中？每個人心中總有屬於片自己美好的過去，記憶的園地可以是現實的避風港，也可以是提昇的力量！與旅台朋友的相聚總是離不開聆聽馬來西亞的種種不是。這的學術、媒體、政治等自由開放的氣氛與台是不同的，但馬來西亞不會發生總統等待別人報備出國的電話，長不長，幼不幼，上位者成為笑柄的事情。文化的適應是難過的，心理的調整是困難的。在嘛嘛檔口旅台學姐問我滿意自己這些年來的甚麼。很難說個明白。走過不適應的病痛，心情的調整，方向的確定！在無可取代的親情中，在許多鼓勵及提攜中，在接觸或聽聞了許多讓人感動的人與事後，我想，我知道自己安身立命之處。飛翔的心是無法栓住，翱翔歸來的的鳥兒或許更戀巢。靜靜看著骨子裡的青天白日，在熱帶陽光照耀下漸漸淡了，我穿上了沙籠的衣裳。 （星洲日報／副刊‧文：煜朗‧2006/03/14）
writing blocked
Yesterday i defined myself as "missing in space". The story begins as this... I continue my chapter 4 writing and while in the process of writing.. I keep warning myself to write a proper chapter, well-organized and lets the reader easy to catch my point... Then, the more i think , the more my brain was blocked. I stucked in the middle of nowhere. So I decided to give myself a break. (mainly because I m having headache too.. that's why it dragged me down). I save my chapter into USB drive, turn off the PC and ready to go home. On my way home, there are too many things came in my mind. I started to puzzle myself about my research, and asking many Q of "am I doing a right thing, is my research is worth to do?? and etc... Sometime, things really pulled us down. But I know, I m not going to give up, I knew I just need a spare time to stop for a while, reorganize my brain, and yeah i think that's all i need.
I reached home superb early ard 2pm i guess. Flatmate looked at me in a very surprise expression..because i seldom appear in flat at this time.. Then, I took out my diary and started to write something. This is one way I try to release my bad feeling.. Then, turned on my laptop and decided to continue my writing... I managed to borrow some thesis writing book from central library and in fact it gave me some hints after i read it... And the book did mentioned that sometime we might have the writing block which mean we cannot continue our writing.. but it is very common. and the advice is "try to continue write it .. and you will finally write out what you wanna say .." That's the reason I tried to on my laptop and continue to write... though I am having headache, but I just wanna wish i can overcome this..
.. and it really helps. I manage to write what I wanna share ... hmm.
tyre exploded!
Hey fren, thanks for the help. I managed to get my bike fixed. It is the cycle surgery at the corner of Stuart Street. Yeah I agreed with you. They do have a very professional way of treating bicycle. And they are friendly too. So thanks heaps fren. ")
Ok.. time to go back and prepare my lunch. I am starving ...
live, grow .. discover
This morning, SB passed me her own made cookies, frankly said it tastes really nice. Imagine you enjoy this choco nut cookies with a cup of tea, how wonderful it is!
Today I woke up with headache, try to get a shower so as can get rid of the headache, but there is no improvement at all... argh.. I think it was caused by the wrong posture of my head during my sleep last night... how how..
Wanna share something with you about a conversation I had with a youngster in public library:-
Youngster -18 years old (
y) & ME (
vino)
While waiting for my part time job.. I went to nearby public library to plan out my next few days's schedule..I took out the Otago daily planner and wrote as much as I had in mind. And here the youngster with a school uniform came and sat beside me. At first, he just did his own reading and we didn't have any eye contact or any greeting.
after 5 minutes later, .. he started his conversation..
y: hey, so you are the first year in Uni..
vino puzzled a while..
vino: no, I am final year of undergraduate.. I will finish my study end of this year.. ( I feel bad when I said this to him... but that is the answer I can think of when suddenly a stranger asked me this Q... am I trying to run away the fact of actually I am 26 and going to 27 soon.. I m not really sure..
y: oh cool! that's cool! ( I noticed that he like to say "cool")
vino: so how abt you? high school?
y: yeah, still in high school but looking forward to get out from the school environment..I wanna go travel around the world!
(he started to share with me his plan of travelling around in Asia country end of this year with his friends. He will travel to Thailand, Msia, Spore, then Japan and Korea.)
y: So have you been to Japan?
vino: no, but hope I will have chance to go there:P
y: cool!
y: I like to be your age, you are around 24 right?
vino puzzled again..
vino: ah yes!
y: In the age of over 20, I am pretty sure I can control and plan my life better.. I have more freedom and do what I keen to .. So, what did you do when you was 18?
man, he had so many questions! but I feel good chatting with him.. I can see the cheerful look and fresh mind of a youngster.. and I think I am old in front of him. hmm. vino: well, when i was 18, I did not have so many plan as you.. I only concentrated on my study and hope for the best to get the uni entry! that's all .. not much thing i did! (and smile stupidly to him... )
y: ah ha.. well, cool!
then he said he love film making, martial art, he loves law and tourism study as well..y: but law is pretty boring i guess.. so I think I still love film making, to be a director..
vino: so u prefer to make action movie ? since you love martial art?
y: i wanna be comedian director!
woooo.....and he passed me a book to read. y: read this, is a good book though. This book is all about a true story about a comedian director in UK.. After chatting with him, ... I kind of thinking back what I m doing when I was 18 and do I have so many plans in mind? I think the answer is no. I wish him all the best for his dreams. Cheers youngster!
plan it out and do it
After cooking my lunch & dinner, I decided to go to school. The weather changed to a bit sunny, so I think I am still able to cope with the outside weather. It is very silent in school and I only saw the light was on in one lecturer's room... other than that, nobody came to school today. may be the weather really make us feel dull and sleepy...especially drag yourself out from your warm flat. .. come on.. I need to plan out my next week schedule, list out what are the things I need to complete or proceed. And I wish I can fully utilise my 6 months here.. because I am looking forward to go back to work, no more study life. (well, of course I still can study or learn while working) So better appreciate current life. hmm.Research is the process you find the problem,
understand it, and solve it by improving
your understanding & findings ,
and research is the process of your own learning.
